Ayla, anak :)

"Ma, pasensya na kung hinde ako present sa mga time na kinailangan mo'ko. I've been really busy with school lately. I AM SO SORRY. Babawi ako, I promise. Pabayaan mo sya. Wag mo kalimutan yung sinabe mo.. "Itatapal ko sa muka nya tong poem na'to!" Number one sya sa listahan natin. LOUISE. Kaya mo yan :) I know you can. You've been through a lot. Alam ko sawa ka na, lagi na lang ganto. Pero..we just have to put up with it, OK? Kaya yan. Distract yourself sa pagbisita ni Nicole, ayt?


I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, I don't want him - such an asinine person - to hurt you this way, to ruin your life completely. WAG, I have faith in you :)

Be strong. I love you Wis, always."


it's okay you know. wala un. :) its just, wala ako mapaghingahan dito sa bahay.
so i thought na, sbhn sau un.. i know you have your own set of problems, im sorry
kng dadagdag pa ako. i know kaya ko to. lagi naman eh. kahit na minsan ayaw ko,
kinakaya ko pa dn.. im a weak person, alam naman ninyong lahat un. i cant face this
SHIT all alone. haha. nakakasawa tlga. its tough. dealing with this na parang sa iba,
walang sense. hayun. i dont know what to do anymore. kaya tlgang masusunod yung
gusto nio na pabayaan xa. la naman ako mapapala ryt? mejo mahirap lng tlga..
and it takes a lot of crappy time to fix this hollow space in my heart again. harhar. hay.

i want to do that. honestly.. gs2 ko iatapal sa muka nia un.. gs2 ko xa murahin and all that.
but i cant.. kasi wala naman kmeng commitment sa isat isa. so magmumukang makapal lang ako. i love him.. kahit na UNTI lng. maybe it isnt love at all. maybe i just care for him.
and there's a so much following that word. natatanga ako actually. kasi ambilis ko magcare,
ambilis ko magtiwala. ang bilis ko MANIWALA. kng may award lng for pinakatanga in this world, ako na un. haha.

sana nga makagala na kme nila nicole. i want my mind busy 24/7. if thats possible.
sa twing nakikita ko xa, naiiyak ako. nung first day, i was wishing na sana matagal ang panahon. ang uwian matagal. pero ngaun, im wishing all this crap will be over everytime a subject is finished. ung self-confidence ko, parang nawala. i feel so NUMB.

hayy. sorry kng binubuhos ko lahat ng to sayo at dito sa blog na to.. pag nde ko kasi nilabas to, mababaliw ako ng tuluyan. im having a nasty headache. my period is not yet here and im feeling sick and tired and abnormal.
im feeling stressed and deprived of sleep ( cos of the tossing around in bed at night. ) ung appetite ko, antanga. my eyes are like BLAHH. hay. lahat na! haha. you see? its so harddddddddd. sana lalake nlng ako :)))

ayun. sorry ulit! :) and thank you thank you for being there for me. always.. sorry im such a bitch of a friend, but know that im always here for you. i love you. :)